why can’t i forgive you
if you ever get tired of being unforgivable
i’ll forgive you.
i’ll wipe the vomit from your lips
with my bare fingertips
and i’ll tell you that it’s okay.
i’ll know you didn’t want to hurt me
and i’ll forgive you because
you won’t be hurting me anymore.
you won’t need to say sorry
because that part will be over.
we’ll be past all the apologies
we’ll be past this.
i won’t tell you what you did wrong.
i won’t scream or cry.
i’ll just tell you it’s okay,
even though it isn’t
because it’s been four years
and i still can’t figure out how to just
when all you do is