a sip of seventeen
i think i’m drunk on seventeen.
the way we play beer pong
the way your hands grip my shoulders and
shake
when i can’t hit a solo cup.
you wanted me to come and
you wanted me to stay
and i try not to read too deeply into any of it.
i always treat people like metaphors
but we’re all so
literal.
we mean the things we say
even if we say them
softly.
subliminal gestures might as well be
subatomic,
so far beneath the surface that they don’t exist.
small things have small meanings.
so why
can’t i stop thinking
of us,
drunk in your bed,
your hands smoothening the bones of my shoulders
while i pretended to sleep.
i love that.
the seventeen.
the choices that don’t make any sense.
the signals that you never meant to send.
it still tastes
like the last time
and i guess i never drink enough
to make myself sick.