mattered

it’s over.

what you said was real.

my head was a snow globe and i thought if i shook it

those moments would last a little longer.

i thought i could keep that version of you trapped,

stuck in place.

maybe you loved me then,

but that never mattered.

that boy existed for moments,

and you’ve been gone for months.

that matters.

all of the times you’ve left matter.

even if i never mattered to you,

i

still

mattered.