if i had let you
you blocked me on facebook and maybe it’s for
the best because i’d already blocked you on
everything else. you couldn’t text, you couldn’t
call, so you crawled through a crack and
begged me to be
a thing you could still have.
i only know your fiancé’s last name because
it’s yours. you didn’t tell me you got married
until i asked — acted like your real life
was a thing that slipped your mind.
we never met.
you cursed me because you couldn’t kiss
me — because i didn’t want to be wanted less, to be blown out like a candle — a rock skipped
across the surface of a black lake, left to sink,
just so you could see the way my body skipped
across your glass.
you blocked me on facebook and i only
know that because i wanted you to read my
book.
i hope god forgives you for what you’ve done —
for what you would have done to me
if i had let you.
i hope he can forgive me for
almost letting you.